dismal night

i'm in a foul mood right now. borderline bitchy, depressed, anxious and weepy.
miller lite is helping a bit, though. i wish i could just come out and say it for real, and not just in my super secret fucking blog. dating a straight edger sucks, for fucking real.

cleaning the apartment for mary and ron. i have no right to bitch at mom for doing the same now, i guess. i really have to pander to them though, they are really helping me out. i get more fucking funding from them than i do from the government, for gods' sake.
speaking of which, i am so sick of people that don't have to worry about paying for their college bitching about paying for college.
there was some brat on the bus today that was crying over her parents not paying for her spring break. i'm sorry, but bitches like her need a reality check. mommy and daddy aren't footing my fucking bill. and they didn't buy me that nice new bmw, either. quit your bitching and bleach your hair some more, stupid cunt. grow up. and go back to fucking new jersey.
i wish everyone had to worry about paying for school. i wish everyone had to work two jobs and take a full load of classes. and above all else, i wish these fucking professors would come out of their fantasy world where all a student does is school. it's just not happening.

i wish i had the nerve to apologize to brad. i'm a cunt, and i know it. sorry, bud. no hard feelings.

found my printmaking portfolio while cleaning. it was heartbreaking in a way. i could have gotten in if i had it that day. i would have rather not found it at all. meh. i'll leave here with a lousy art ed degree, regret and terrible debt.

yay college.

random creeper

a random creeper told me that i had a sparkle in my eyes on friday.... one of the creepiest creepers i've had in awhile. it was sad though, because he kept going on about how much he loved his girlfriend, but that he lost the sparkle for her, you know that sad sob story. so he says, i see it there, you're in the same situation, blah blah blah... and i really didn't know what to say. it was just so odd and creepy.

i really want to see burn after reading. looks so good. i love the coen brothers.
and, to boot, i love the poster. it's just so retro and good...

just because...